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May. 15th, 2012 10:26 pm[Filter: Private]
I'm trying really hard to listen to what Father Leo has to say and to do what he tells me too but it's still so hard. Especially since he actually thinks I need to find a way to forgive Destin for what he's done to us. Forgive him. I don't even know how I ever could do that. I can't. I just can't.
But I do know it wasn't my fault. Everyone is so sure of that, even if sometimes I'm not. But I can keep reminding myself and then someday I won't need reminding anymore.
If only Tristan would stop crying so much. Violet wasn't this fussy when she was that age. It just gets too loud to think sometimes.
It's gotten better but only by a little. And then later this month is ... No. I don't even want to think about that yet.
I'm trying really hard to listen to what Father Leo has to say and to do what he tells me too but it's still so hard. Especially since he actually thinks I need to find a way to forgive Destin for what he's done to us. Forgive him. I don't even know how I ever could do that. I can't. I just can't.
But I do know it wasn't my fault. Everyone is so sure of that, even if sometimes I'm not. But I can keep reminding myself and then someday I won't need reminding anymore.
If only Tristan would stop crying so much. Violet wasn't this fussy when she was that age. It just gets too loud to think sometimes.
It's gotten better but only by a little. And then later this month is ... No. I don't even want to think about that yet.
